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So..tired..playing WoW and Resident Evil at the same time.. I died a little bit inside..when asked to tank a lowbie instance..while I was playing Resident Evil..Ragefire Trogs..they die on their own from my auras and consecrate..elipses..they're my friends in this post..I am using them..too much..I love bacon..but it's hard to eat bacon..when tanking Ragefire Chasm..I love Thrall..and bacon..good night..
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[07 Mar 2008|05:35pm] |
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Lolololol. Spazzing Canda.
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[12 Feb 2008|03:49am] |
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Hm. It's been a long time.
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[27 Jun 2007|02:15am] |
Klaus Nomi, you are my hero.
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[15 Jun 2007|02:22am] |
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( Comics? )
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[03 Jun 2007|07:03pm] |
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfufuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
I am so irritated, tired, sore, angry, stressed, upset, lonely, hateful, spiteful, depressed, and greedy right now.
Fuck.
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[31 May 2007|01:24am] |
So my mom's doctor thinks her problem is serious.
She's had a deteriorating memory for awhile already, and the seizure she had on Sunday was a wake-up call.
My sister and I have been home with her all week.
She can't work for at least a week, and she can't drive for a month, in case she seizes again.
We can't leave her alone, and she's afraid to go out and do anything, in case something happens.
She gets so bored when she has nothing to do at home.
Chels and I have been cooking and cleaning, so all she really has to do all day is sleep and watch tv.
I feel so bad for her, because she's scared.
Mothers are never supposed to be scared, and children are never supposed to be scared for them.
Sigh. I hope everything will be alright.
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[27 May 2007|05:20pm] |
My god, my mother just had a seizure.
They're taking her to the hospital as I sit here typing.
Thank god my dad was with her, because I wouldn't have known otherwise.
I had to call 911 while my dad held her, and holy crap, is it ever scary.
I should have realized that she was going to have one when she wasn't making any sense earlier.
She told me that an ant was carrying a monk.
Telltale sign, along with the fact that she had a headache.
I think I should go call my aunt and let her know what happened while the rest of my family goes to the hospital with her.
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[17 May 2007|11:16pm] |
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So I came back home, and I was talking about Big Boss and how he should be held often, and what happens?
I go to hold him, and I can't find him.
He's gone, and it's my fault for not buying a proper lid for his tank.
I'm so fucking dumb.
Now my little baby is loose, and we are going away for the weekend.
I hope we find him tomorrow, or I'm going to be even more heartbroken than I am right now.
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[25 Apr 2007|01:23am] |
So my uncle died today.
He fought hard, though he wanted to pass.
Not long before he died, he saw my aunt Giselle who had passed away on the first of the month, and called her name with the last of his strength.
At the end, he was too weak and doped up on morphine to even wake from the induced coma.
Rest in peace uncle Richard, you were a very strong man, and many people loved you.
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[16 Apr 2007|12:31am] |
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Of course it doesn't look as good as when they first did it, but ( I still like it. )
It's too bad you can't see the colours better, but all I had to take pictures with was my shitty ps2 eyetoy.
I've been up since before 6am, and I'm really very tired.
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[14 Apr 2007|09:57pm] |
Well, my hair is now several different colours.
Blue, darker blue, dark purple, lighter purple, and gold.
Tomorrow morning, it'll be cut short.
How exciting~
Chelsea now has a beautiful shade of dark purple with red and orange highlights.
Man, I TOLD HER that dark hair would look good on her.
Pictures tomorrow, hopefully.
Until then, ( look at the style my cut is going to be a variation of. )
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[12 Apr 2007|04:23pm] |
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So I went to the doctor today, and I got my sleep med Rx refilled.
I asked him to take a look at a few moles I have, one on my arm, two on my back, and one on my stomach.
He said he wants to remove them just to be sure, because he didn't like the look of them.
Maybe they were giving him the evil eye or something.
So as soon as I have the $60 to get them removed, (it's $60 for each, but he said he'd do 3 for the price of one, and the one on my stomach will be removed on a later date) I'm going to be rid of them.
That means the weird 4 leaf clover mole on my upper arm will be gone forever!!1
I'll have some cool scars to show off instead. :D
The hair show is this weekend, and I'm really excited.
I can't wait to see what they do to my boring hair.
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[07 Apr 2007|04:56pm] |
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I found out yesterday that my uncle has stopped eating, and he no longer wants visitors.
He knows he's only got a few days left, so he wants to be at peace until he finally goes.
I've never really experienced deaths in the family until just recently, besides a few relatives that I didn't know very well and didn't get to see very often.
I know lately my journal has been a little bit of a downer, and I'm sorry.
I also know I've been a real bitch to a few of the people I really care about, and I'm sorry.
I've just been going through alot of stress and whatnot over my family predicaments, so if I seem to be in a bad mood, I hope it's understandable.
I'd especially like to appologize to Steph, even though she makes me very angry sometimes with what she says.
I understand that there are things you need to deal with, but I can't help unless you talk to me about it.
When you have a spare few minutes, give me a call.
Troyenne, sorry if I'm boring or a little distant lately, but I just need to get my shit straightened out a little.
I hope to visit more often now that it's getting warmer out.
Shera and Ky, same goes with you guys. We'll have to have a going away picnic for you when it gets a tad warmer and a little less wet outside.
All you guys that I know from UMGA(I have no idea which of you actually read my journal besides Ryan) I hope we get to hang out more this summer.
It's always a pleasure to see you all.
I'm planning a cottage party this summer.
Fishing, swimming, canoeing, paddleboating, ect.
It will be great.
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[03 Apr 2007|01:56am] |
I think this summer I'm going to have a big garage sale.
I'm going to encourage family and friends to donate items for it, and the proceeds will go toward cancer research.
My aunt's funeral is being held back for a couple of months until my uncle passes.
They're going to have a service for the both of them, as my uncle isn't long for this world either.
He will be the second child my grandma and grandpa have lost, and the way most people see it, a parents shouldn't outlive their children.
My uncle was found to have cancer many many years ago, before my aunt was even diagnosed.
I believe my uncle was diagnosed with osteogenic sarcoma, and had to get his leg removed at the hip.
Cancer then appeared in his lung, and half of that was removed.
He was fine for years, but then it returned again, this time in his other lung and around his heart.
He recently went in for surgery, but they couldn't remove the cencerous tissue around his weakening muscle.
He's said to have only a few months left, but he's going to try everything in his power to stay alive.
His three children, my cousins, are very family oriented.
Roger, the youngest of the three had been taking care of my aunt before she passed.
Nicolas, the middle child is always very angry, and I assume he is worse now that everything is happening so quickly.
Clark, the oldest, is always too stoned, so he probably can't even grasp what is going on.
My aunt got to see her sons grow up into men, and got to see one of them married.
I hope my uncle gets to see the other two marry.
On a lighter note, Big Boss is cool.
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[01 Apr 2007|04:20pm] |
My aunt died just before noon today.
My emotions are conflicting so badly, I just want to explode.
I feel like I could literally burst at any moment, yet I have a strange calmness inside.
My aunt Giselle was the strongest woman I have ever known.
She battled her brain cancer for almost 15 years, before finally surrendering to it, not of her own will.
Had she been kept fed, I'm sure she would have battled for much longer than she had.
I suppose in a way it was for the best, but I still find it horrendous to starve somebody who is still alive until they pass.
She was known for her kindness, and she fought for the cancer cure.
As a woman who loved angels as she did, I'm sure she's happy in heaven with them.
Rest in peace, aunty. You were loved by all.
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[31 Mar 2007|01:25am] |
My aunt has had a brain tumor for over 10 years.
She went into a coma a few days ago.
It seems that without even thinking, they have removed her feeding tube.
Those bastards are starving her to death.
There is little to no chance of her waking up, but come on.
It's considered neglect to starve someone under different circumstances.
Murder, even.
They are fucking murdering my aunt, and no one is going to do anything.
People wonder why I hate doctors, and that shit is one of the reasons why.
I don't care if she's in a coma, don't fucking force her to die like the shit faced cock gobblers you are. You call yourselves medical personel. I don't fucking care if you have a god damn diploma, think about fucking morals. You fucking life stealing, empty headed, piles of donkey cum.
My mother says that it's for the best, but I don't fucking care.
To me, this is as bad as if she were actually aware of what they're doing.
I don't care if she can't feel any pain. It's the principle.
I hate you, fucking bastard doctors.
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[24 Mar 2007|04:30pm] |
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I'm really tired for some reason.
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[19 Mar 2007|02:16am] |
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The dreams I've been having about this one person won't stop.
He's made it quite clear about how he feels, but I can't stop my dreams, now can I?
I guess I'm just lonely.
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[18 Mar 2007|02:31am] |
Hey Troyenne, lick my boots.
Hahahahaha.
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